Kaiser Chiefs Concert... Boring British Band

Went for my dose of British rock with my clients to the Kaiser Chief Concerts... Seriously I think its crap. I had totally NO IDEA of what they are singing nor why people like their crap music. Its boring, sounds abit force fed and most importantly it doesn't ryhme well. Blar Blar Blar... I'm an All American Rock Band kid since young. Guns and Roses, Staind, Smashing Pumpkins, Linkin Park, 3 Doors Down, Creed, Green Day, Kid Rock, Aerosmith, Pearl Jam... Come On! Commercialized or not, well I like the US bands more better. More energy, More Real Heavy Rock and much more emotions with pure energy and angst!

British bands are pretty melodramatic - I like that but they lack the capability to raise your adrenaline level. Very boring guitar play and stupid electric organ backgrounds. Oasis was good but rarely one sees another as capable with less arrogance.

The crowd ar Kaiser Chiefs are interesting - mostly ang mohs and of course expats which my customers are. I'm amazed there are alot of youngsters locals who are there. What shit are kids listening to these days? Some of my customers said they have the album, I'm like WHAT??? Its not even worth to be in my i-pod for free!!! I would nvr waste a track's time playing this in my car. Anyway, I'm someone who fail to understand the goodness of british rock.

But well, in memoirs of a boring concert experience, I took some pics of the kaiser cheifs concert while there....

Next time... definitely a Linkin park concert or a Nickelback, Disturbed performance, no British band!

Your Car Says "Something" About U - New Paper SUV-vival Challenge

Interesting findings over last weeks from some friends on what misconceptions people have on each other on the road.

Nissan Saloon Drivers - One kind! Does not matter what models, really

Vios, Altis, Civics, Lancers - Hard to find your car in golden shoe carpark w/o using the alarm

KIAs, Hyundais - Budget vehicles in short term, maintenance and repairs siong. Conclusion Vios best

CRVs, Camry, Wish, Streams, Estimas, Pinics, Grandis - Fetching kids and dropping off maids at Giant

Mazda 3/6 - Not Fast, Too Furious 3/6

Tucson, Sante Fe, CheryT11 - Roadhogs that can't go off road

Pajeros, Vitaras, Foresters, Prados - Offroaders, adventure seekers or so they hope to be

Hummers, Landrovers, Land Cruisers - Offroaders.

C200s, IS250, Mark X, CX7, Murano, A4, 325, PI Accords, Passats - execs

525s, GS300s, RX300, A6 - Top execs

E class and most Mercs 4drs - towkays of all kinds

Fiat, Renault, Peugeot - What got into you?

Alfra Romeo - Expensive, looks like sports car... looks only...

Mitsuoka - Huh??? *Only 2 of all people I know heard of this brand, no comments

Saab - Ermmmm *Most people know about the brand dunno about the car except its not cheap

After my New Paper SUV-vival trip, these are some points proven on the SUVs.

Rav4s, Lexus RX300, VolvoXC90, Honda Crossroads - Come on, u guys are urban vehicles. Period ok?

Vitaras - Good for a real SUV but needs skills to handle in real challenging terrains.

Took part in the New Paper SUV-vial challenge to Kuantan, 2 days 1 night trip and spent some nice time on the Pahang beaches and admiring the beautiful nature.... thanks to Suzuki sponsoring the publicity of their new GV - Grand Vitara 2.4L 4WD machines.

Toyota Land Cruiser, Land Rovers, Range Rovers - Great and very powerful offroaders, expensive though. Here one pic from the New Paper SUV-vival challenge I took

Fortuner, Prado, Musso - So Big and Tall that they travel as easy off road and on the highway. Thumbs Up! And best performing range in the SUV Kuantan challenge

*Hummer H3 - No. 1 performing in the Kuantan Challenge... Fast and Nimble, Big and Powerful in the sand dune!

Summary of the Kuantan challenge - Toyota Fortuners, Prado are the sweet spots. Practically bouncing off the terrain with ease and no sweat at very affordable prices.

Here are some pics taken in the Kuantan trip. Unfortunately those that have me inside are still with friends. Nevertheless, here are the ones I have taken on the trip. Its defintely a pure display of why people pay top dollars to get a real SUV than those that looked like one. Its the engine and gearshift that comes to the crunch when ur in the real offroad!

And of course, not to forget the biggest LOSERS - CRVs from CRaVers Club. Made the most noise, but nvr go offroad

童年的纸飞机 现在终于飞回我手里

对这个世界如果你有太多的抱怨 跌倒了就不敢继续往前走

为什么人要这么的脆弱 堕落

请你打开电视看看 多少人为生命在努力勇敢的走下去

我们是不是该知足 珍惜一切 就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡 随着稻香河流继续奔跑

微微笑 小时候的梦我知道 不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑

乡间的歌谣永远的依靠 回家吧 回到最初的美好

不要这么容易就想放弃 就像我说的

追不到的梦想 换个梦不就得了

为自己的人生鲜艳上色 先把爱涂上喜欢的颜色

笑一个吧 功成名就不是目的 让自己快乐快乐这才叫做意义

童年的纸飞机 现在终于飞回我手里

所谓的那快乐 赤脚在田里追蜻蜓追到累了

偷摘水果被蜜蜂给叮到怕了 谁在偷笑呢

我靠着稻草人吹着风唱着歌睡着了 哦 哦

午后吉它在虫鸣中更清脆 哦 哦

阳光洒在路上就不怕心碎 珍惜一切 就算没有拥有

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡 随着稻香河流继续奔跑

微微笑 小时候的梦我知道

不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑 乡间的歌谣永远的依靠

回家吧 回到最初的美好

还记得你说家是唯一的城堡 随着稻香河流继续奔跑

微微笑 小时候的梦我知道

不要哭让萤火虫带着你逃跑 乡间的歌谣永远的依靠

回家吧 回到最初的美好

Wooo hoooo! Finally got my SE C905 all malt black and ready for 8MP of snaps! Guess what its only for $18 dollars! A recontract discount of $200, voucher $300 and an additional reward points of $150 gets me there. Moved my plan to Starhub Ultimate @ $200 per mth subscription and with IBM Corporate discount, I'm paying only $140. Coool! My last 12 mths of Hp bills are average $250 a mth... guess this will do some cost savings together with an assured $500 voucher annually on top of the points redemption.

Lighthouse had a play today in church called "The Journal". Was pretty impressive. A group of youth actors in this drama displaying different pragmatic family values, issues and challenges faced by people today. Seeing the way family members treat each other in the drama make all of reflect upon ourselves, have we been a good brother/sister? A caring father or a filial son? A good spouse? Pastor Ronny's daughter was the Director for the play and I'm deeply impressed with the work and agenda behind. Well done! His Son has came to preach in a very impressive and presentable ending towards the closure and all came into prayers for their family. Overall it was good... although the young chap seems abit too over-selling and not too natural about it. Too much rehearsals sometimes. These things come better when its touch comes from that moment itself. But its all good things and he should be a promising youth.

Recently Jay released his new album 魔杰座 and the song 稻香's MV really caught my attention. With such compatibility of the current economic climate, the lyrics describe the mundane struggles and pains we have in real life while endearing and in hope to go back to our childhood days where home was the castle of peace, love and shelter. Watching the MV makes me even more touched. A middle aged guy lost his job, went into depression and his wife left him together with the daughter. Being sacked and dumped, lost and lonely... he left for his hometown, a village where there are wheat fields where he used to familiarise himself with fun and sweet innocent laughter. These were precious moments that touched his heart once more, and his mother was there in arms wide open, hugging him and cooking his fave foods in welcome. He then felt warmth, love and sense of belonging... away from the urbanised and cruel truth in the cities.

The ending was of course, like most of Jay's songs meant to be... encouraging... Amidst the fun he had with the kids in the village, the wife and daughter came to him and reunited. This song has a sense of sadness and empathy for those caught in the financial crisis and downturn. And it was pretty much written either in coincidence or intended, to keep this people going.

Well... I have a few friends from DBS who were out of the 900 staff cut. It could have been me if I was still there. Even so, no one can predict the future with such corporate uncertainties these days that it wun happen to me or anyone of us, anytime. God bless and help all those who were affected. Amen!

Wall-E... I love EVE !!!

Damn busy and disappointing day. Life is so meaningless, once more. Nothing new except more mess. Got home, ans emails and went through my online training which is due in 3 days. Fucking crazy shit.

Had a very full dinner and started watching Wall-E. Looks like a stupid animated crap to me. Oh well, what the fuck, I bought it in JB for 5rm... In the player it goes and wala wala ... Cool animation. I like the ambience designed in the first setting.

The first 40 minutes or so of Wall-E are almost completely without dialogue. Instead, the story is told visually, as we see Wall-E, the abandoned garbage robot, puttering around a staggeringly rendered post-destruction Earth. He goes around doing his job, as he has for the past infinite years, compacting trash into cubes and stacking them into immense towers.

On the side, he collects remnants of humanity to keep for his own amusement. Zippo lighters, diamond ring boxes, Rubik's Cubes, Christmas lights: these are what Wall-E surrounds himself with. Because he's so alone except for a little cockroach as companion, these human disposed objects are his companions, his contact with humanity. He watches a movie on an iPod that he somehow hooked up to a VCR, emulating the dancing and learning about love. That's not the only Apple reference in the movie: he makes the classic Mac bootup sound when he turns on.

Wall-E might be the most sympathetic, lovable robot ever created on film, not to forget his love interest EVE. It was cute when he was trying to get near to EVE, trying my shy means to hold her hand while she nearly zapped him to dust thinking he is threat. While R2-D2 was hilarious and endearing, he had the benefit of C3PO to translate for him and a cast of human characters to carry the weight of the story. At the end of the day, R2-D2 was simply comic relief, but Wall-E is so full of humanity that you feel like your heart might just burst. Simply put, Wall-E is a masterpiece.

In fact my heart felt for Wall-E whenever he was in fear of losing EVE. And their love was so naive, so innocent and so endearing in times of danger when they are willing to die for each other's beliefs and safety.

When you see Wall-E try to imitate the dancing using a hub cap he collected just for that purpose, you know that this is more than a piece of machinery. Proving Pixar's symbolic metaphoric analogy, this little silent robot has more humanity in him than most movie characters played by actual humans.

Immediately, we realize this isn't your typical kiddie cartoon. Comparable to Toy Story but no pop culture jokes? No instantly-recognizable celebrity voices? A decimated, humanless landscape full of towers of garbage and decrepit buildings? A lonely robot trying to learn about love and humanity through centuries of its trash? This looks more like a beautiful, haunting sci-fi movie than a children's movie, because that's exactly what it is.

Wall-E features loving nods to everything from Brave New World to 2001 to Star Wars without ever feeling derivative. Instead, it builds on them, making what has the potential to be an almost relentlessly bleak world into one full of complete joy and levity. It always has that undercurrent of melancholy just under the surface, as we never really forget that humanity has utterly destroyed the planet and turned itself into a race of pudgy, helpless babies, but heart of the story is Wall-E and his longing for love.

And isn't that the sign of great science fiction? While on the surface it's a movie about robots and spaceships set centuries in the future, deep down it's about humanity and its place on Earth and in the universe. It uses its out-of-this-world settings and characters as a lens to reflect our own world back at us, showing us both the beauty and the ugliness of our existence through the eyes of a guileless, trash-compacting robot.

In a movie season that's overpopulated with tired superhero movies, remakes and sequels, it's incredibly refreshing to see a movie that stands on its own as a completely new and unique creation. It's safe to say you've never seen anything like Wall-E

In a movie season that's overpopulated with tired superhero movies, remakes and sequels, it's incredibly refreshing to see a movie that stands on its own as a completely new and unique creation. It's safe to say you've never seen anything like Wall-E

Tropic Thunder... Only thing that managed to put a smile on my face tdy

Went JB today instead of church. Damn! Feel so guilty... I missed my sermon. Was feeling really down ytd and even this morning due to work. Deeply depressed in fact. Was drinking non-stop and poping pills. Oh well... Not the worst of my substance utilization anyway. I hate the word "abuse". Its like when people say I have a drinking problem; I dun... I drink, I get drunk, knocked out and I wake up one day or another. There is no problem, right?

Anyway... JB trip was good today. Had my fave yong tau fu again with ah siao. Abalone, fresh veges, fried fishcakes and lots of chilli. The noodles were great in those unique m'sian black sauce. Yummmmmy. Xiaobai had her carwash and we headed for DVDs. Got a few old horror classics. And guess what? Tropic Thunder is Out... So fast on DVDs, code 9 digital somemore

Here is my review:

Think of all the ways you can spoof those trailers and make your grandma laugh; You get it all in Tropic Thunder, a knockout comedy that keeps you laughing constantly. It's not a cheap flick of a lame spoof. Containing lacing combustible action with explosive gags. Major props to Ben Stiller, the director, co-producer, co-writer and co-star, who shows us Hollywood at war with making of a megabudget Vietnam War movie.

And whoever the guy is who plays the short, fat, bald, f-bomb-dropping studio chief, Les Grossman, has a big future. It's Tom Cruise, and whether he's abusing his assistant or indulging in a happy dance that must be seen to be believed, he's a hoot. Stiller excels as Tugg Speedman, a muscled superstar who has sequelized his franchise as the brawny Scorcher more often than Stallone has dragged Rambo back to the box-office well. Tugg's one attempt to prove he can act, as a retarded, bucktoothed farmhand who talks to animals in Simple Jack, flopped big time. Taking the role of the Rambo-esque John "Four Leaf" Tayback in Tropic Thunder — the name of the film within the film — can be Tugg's ticket to legit. The real Four Leaf is on set to keep things factual. And Tugg's agent, the Pecker (Matthew McConaughey), is back in L.A. to make sure his client is provided with TiVo even in the jungle (Kauai, Hawaii, standing in for Southeast Asia).

Matching Tugg in diva tantrums and insecurity is famed comic and dope fiend Jeff Portnoy (Jack Black), known for The Fatties, a movie series in which Jeff, aping Eddie Murphy in The Nutty Professor, portrays an entire family of prodigious farters. We even see a trailer for a Fatties flick featuring Black demonstrating a Kama Sutra of flatulence positions. This is Black's zaniest performance since School of Rock, and he makes Jeff's turn as a gunnery sarge look convincing as well. Nice touch.

The award for best in show has to go to Robert Downey Jr. — Iron Man himself — as Kirk Lazarus, an Aussie actor who has already collected five Oscars for losing himself in his roles, most recently as a priest who lusts to get inside the monk robes of Tobey Maguire. To get inside the skin of African-American Sgt. Lincoln Osiris in Tropic Thunder, Kirk alters his voice and dyes his skin black. This Chicken George routine pisses off Alpa Chino (a terrific Brandon T. Jackson), the hip-hop hitmaker ("I Love Tha' Pussy") hired to bring street cred to the movie, despite merchandising his ass with a "Booty Sweat" energy drink and his "Alpa Chinos" menswear line. Alpa can't stop Kirk from talking black even when the camera stops rolling. "I don't break character till the DVD commentary," says Kirk. Downey has a ball with the role, and his explanation to Stiller about the dangers of going "full retard" if you want to win an Oscar belongs in a comedy time capsule. Downey is so off-the-charts hilarious that you want to stand up and cheer.

The low-comic ensemble acting in Tropic Thunder is of the highest caliber. Jay Baruchel (Knocked Up) is perfect as Kevin Sandusky, the newbie stuck in a cast of spoiled-brat all-stars. Steve Coogan is deadpan delicious as Damien Cockburn, the British director who is in way over his addled head. And add a big fat shout-out to Pineapple Express madman Danny McBride as Cody, the special-effects techie with an itch to pull the kaboom trigger. Despite having almost blinded Jamie Lee Curtis on Freaky Friday, Cody still wants to blow shit up. And, oh, what fireworks.

Thanks to master cinematographer John Toll (Academy Award winner for Braveheart and Legends of the Fall), the movie looks like the 100 million bucks it reportedly cost. Class, meet crass.

The plot fires up when Cody and Four Leaf convince the director to get the actors away from their entourages and shoot guerrilla-style in the jungle with hidden cameras. That's when they encounter the real guns of a heroin cartel, the Flaming Dragons, led by Tran, a sawed-off 12-year-old terrorist played by star-in-the-making Brandon Soo Hoo. When Tran captures Tugg, death is held at bay because Tran and his cronies are big fans of Simple Jack. They dress up Tugg and force him to act out the entire movie. "More stupid," says Tran, whipping Tugg into beating the studios at their own idiot game.

Is it too much? Sometimes. Tropic Thunder can be silly, shallow and way too inside. But how do you hate on a movie that is willing to do anything for a smile? Plus, there is a shrewd method to Stiller's madness. He knows firsthand that Hollywood is a microcosm for a world that has swallowed its own marketing strategy. Every character in Tropic Thunder is delusional. Having given up on truth, they still do their damnedest to fake it. Stiller has done a howlingly comic hatchet job on the town that has made him a playa. Yet he's caught up, as we are, in the fantasies it's selling. We enter this bizarro fun house giggling at the clowns on view, but we exit — and here's the wow factor — laughing at ourselves.

雕栏玉砌应犹在，只是朱颜改

春花秋月何时了，往事知多少

小楼昨夜又东风，故国不堪回首月明中

雕栏玉砌应犹在，只是朱颜改

问君能有几多愁，恰似一江春水向东流

Found this chinese poem I used to recite during my JC days when I took up literature. It reminds me of the grief and irreversibles I had done.

Looking @ the mess I'm in and over the past... I'm can't be saying I'm ok. I feel like I screwed up my fucking life, in small ways and unimaginably big ones. God damn it! When will all these shit ever end? Arrrgghhh

Pop 2 valium 15 with couple of beers last night before sleep. Was feeling slightly better tiz morning and now terrible. Yvonne was asking me out for a drink. Damn lazy me... I didn't have the motivation to leave my room. I realise with the current stress and financial weather, I have totally no mood to go clubbing.

Sometimes I realise care too much. Nowadays I suddenly lost interest. In fact the only thing I care about is the fact that I dun care anymore. Isn't that a scary thought? I can't really give a fuck to thing no more. Life still goes on. The only disappointment is that I still get to wake up. Why m I still alive?

Its kind of ironic when some people really treasure their life. Some have cancer or terminal diseases and their fight to survive every other minute is admirable. Some who died of accidental death are with regrets that they dun even get to bid farewell to their loved ones or take care of them no more. For me... its just relief.

Oh well many will condemn me as the ungrateful kind. Yeah right. Maybe they dunno what its like in my shoes. Everyone leads a different life all together. Some are better off dead if life is too agonising. I'm that breed.

Anyway only thing I'm looking forward to is the new SE C905 out soon. Technically its out in s'pore but only available through Sony direct outlets. Neither Singtel nor Starhub have launched them yet. Interesting part the SE X1 Xperia is out tmr as well. There is a Singtel booth doing roadshow on the X1 right infront of the starhub shop @ plaza Sing, which coincidentally is also launching the same gadget.

Features
OS Microsoft Windows Mobile 6.1 Professional
Messaging SMS, MMS, Email, Push email, IM
Browser WAP 2.0/HTML (IE), RSS feeds
Colors Solid Black, Steel Silver
Camera 3.15 MP, 2048x1536 pixels, autofocus, video(VGA@30fps), flash; secondary videocall camera

Built-in GPS receiver- A-GPS function- Java MIDP 2.0- FM radio with RDS- MP3/AAC/MPEG4 player- 3.5 mm audio jack- Pocket Office (Word, Excel, PowerPoint, OneNote, PDF viewer)- TrackID music recognition- Picture editor/blogging - Organiser- T9- Built-in handsfree- Voice memo/dial


High megapixel count is the rage these days and Sony Ericsson C905 is adding fuel to the fire. The first 8 megapixel from Sony with WIFI and A-GPS comes with geotagging, Smart Contrast, face detection, and xenon flash, the elaborate camera-centric outfit hides the extra sweet Wi-Fi, GPS and turn-by-turn voice guided navigation.

The Cyber-shot squad has its trustworthy captain and its job is to keep spirits high in the face of cut-throat competition by Samsung and LG. Is it just us, or isn't Nokia missing quite some action here? Nokia N96 is a joke of the town with that ridiculous price for a pure 5 MP and no differentiators from her predecessor N95. Moreover, N96 which packs more memory in built up to 16G is still running on the same old processor. What does that mean to us? Handphone hanging 5 times a day, long loading time and unbelievably poor responsiveness.

With my rewards points redemption, I have got $150 vouchers on top of the renewal $300 vouchers for my contract. Had asked Sony whats the retail now... $968! Presuming with contract, its around $698, that means I will have to redeem more vouchers from my reward points. Anyway I have too many to clear anyway. They just make me some stupid platinum Starhub customer... what a joke! Except for the $500 vouchers they assure me each year with free starhub valued added services/downloads and getting a priority queue at retail stores, I totally can't see any value at all. Its not like my signature UOB which gives me my St James VIP or my Citibank Premier Miles that gives me priority VIP membership at all international airports to lounges and extra Kris flyer points. Talking about credit cards... DBS called to offer me their black card, saying its for VIP customers. What a joke! The cold caller didnt even know the benefits of the card and wanted to sell me 5 years free annual fee Black card. No gifts, No special privileges , nothing but waiver of annual fee thats all. All cards are waived off annual fees these days anyway. Only suckers pay.

Damn! Cant wait for the Sony C905 to be out in stores... My hands are itchy for the 8MP camera fone!. Currently my W880 is pretty much a clean cut, simple to use walkman phone. Lightweight, slim and practical. Only shortcoming is the camera. With the c905, most of my needs will be complete. Although it may not have a walkman function installed, the sound quality should not be far off. The only difference is the user interface for mp3 functions are slightly more straight forward... meaning no playlists... here are some previews! Can't wait for both to be ready!!! Arrggggh! My W880i having some problems lately... Hope I can tahan till then, 2-3 weeks time!







Features
Messaging SMS, MMS, Email, Instant Messaging
Browser WAP 2.0/HTML (NetFront), RSS reader
Colors Night Black, Ice Silver, Copper Gold
Camera 8 MP, 3264x2448 pixels, autofocus, face detection, smart contrast, video(QVGA 30fps), xenon flash
Built-in GPS receiver- A-GPS function- Google maps- Wayfinder Navigator 7- Camera images geo-tagging- Java MIDP 2.0- FM radio with RDS- MP3/AAC/MPEG4 player- TrackID music recognition- Picture editor/blogging - TV out- Organiser- Built-in handsfree- Voice memo/dial- T9

Death, a permanent solution to never-ending temporary problems

Fucking messed up now... All of a sudden, I felt my life has fallen apart. This damned life has broken into pieces long ago, and before I realized, everything seems to be gone...

Its like quicksand, or cancerous infection that eats me up day by day... Minutes pass, hours, then days and years and I can look into the mirror. What the fuck have you done these while? To deserve this pain, this helplessness?

What had I done to get into all these? Suicide is our way of saying to God, 'You can't fire me, I quit...' Your game or mine, lets end it here. I dislike cutting and self abuse. It defeats the purpose somehow. But then physically; pain and gain come together, rather wierdly... complimentary. The physical pain and pleasure distracts the mental torture and helplessness away from reality which sometimes cannot be changed. Facts that cannot be denied, ugly history that was falsified...

The world has never been fair. Face it. People were born evil, read the facts. We were by nature earthly animals who uniquely utilise the best of our intelligence to deny each other of the best, reap the most from one another and invent weapons to kill our neighbours else poison the very food our children eat. We are perhaps the most intelligent beings, closer to God's self in light of his creation. But we are yet indeed the most carnal, vicious beasts born with such instincts

Sometimes when we are upset, we are just... upset then. But when we are antagonised, we do something about it. But what happens when the fire dies? When the hatred ceases? When the passion no longer burns? Ever seen a tiger in a cage? After all the years and helplessness, they change and confine to fate. When u look them in the eyes, you see no soul. Empty hearts... Numb to the outside world. The love has died, so has the angst.

While we continuously seek to live, decently... we lose track of what is really important, the truth. Who is God, where is he now? What do we do when we die? Do we get to rest forever? In heaven? Where is that? A dimension? Hell? Proof? Science? Mystical powers? If Jesus was sent to save the world, If Moses was sent and enlightened to free the Israelis, who in the name of God in our era has been sent? Definitely not Osama... Obama sounds better but still a man. Then who, before the world's eyes will revive the beliefs? The bible, like it or not, was written and passed down over generations. Teachings and verses intepreted differently and depending on perspective. If I were to even suspect, many teachings over time have been massaged into what it is today thus we see different denominions, directions, emphasis and healings.

Lets recall we all die someday. And if we do believe, we go heaven... the other way hell. Does either one ever get full? Well, at least earth does. Interesting thing is that life is permanently full of temporary problems. Obviously the only rational solution to your problem is suicide. A permanent solution to all temporary problems.

Everyday, people die in different ways, accidents and wars, infection plagues and sickness, old age and suicide. The only question is when and how. And what... what happens after... Will we be like the homeless spirits and wandering souls? Or burning in hell? Or just cease to exist? Bodies and bones decay... Do souls do? Do minds do? Minds do become senile, damaged.... but due to physical brain deterioation, only... so like a vase filled with water, when the vase is broken, where will the water go?

Insanity, disturbance, lust and within...

Insanity, disturbance, lust and within...

Had done something today which I felt was wrong. Against God's wishes and an act of the devil within me. Then again, what's new? We are sinners... I hold fear in such actions and of repentance I'm. Fear has struck me after that, with prayers pleading for forgiveness.



Proverbs 5:15-21 Drink water from your own cistern, running water from your own well. Should your springs overflow in the streets, your streams of water in the public squares? Let them be yours alone, never to be shared with strangers. May your fountain be blessed, and may you rejoice in the wife of your youth. A loving doe, a graceful deer-- may her breasts satisfy you always, may you ever be captivated by her love. Why be captivated, my son, by an adulteress? Why embrace the bosom of another man's wife? For a man's ways are in full view of the LORD, and he examines all his paths.


From the above verse, I had sinned... multiple times. With another's wife, I had. With different wives, I had. 2 of my ex were waiting for divorce. Not yet. Another is married. I seem to have incurred a curse this life. Many of my relationships were complicated and involved married or seperated ladies. Nothing came out of it except trauma, regrets and hurt.

Somehow, I seem to be very compatible with married ladies. Dun asky me why and I assure you I had never had that unkind agenda of taking such ill advantage. Many times, it was only after being together did I realise the consequences or the background of things.


Luke 16:18, NIV. "Anyone who divorces his wife and marries another woman commits adultery, and the man who marries a divorced woman commits adultery." From this verse, even if I would to marry my ex, either one of them, I'm in adultery.



Thank god, I didn't. And thank god, I learnt. But in grave regrets, I did what was considered grave in the old testament and immoral in the new testament.

John 1:9 If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.

May God and the Holy Spirit forgive my sins and cleanse me of my impurity. Understand my sins, my addictions and my weakness. Behold thy mighty spirit of God, I cast my worries and disturbance upon you and my sins be washed away with your gracious love and forgiveness. I repent and confess before you, my lord. Amen!